At the end of December 2012 I did my annual reading for the year ahead. I chose 12 SoulCollage(r) cards, one for every month of the year, plus a 13th card, for the ‘overall focus of the year.
The overall focus card for 2013 is “Source Energy”. (God, Goddess, All That Is!)
For the moment, I don’t think I need to say any more about this card, but all I know is that I was thrilled to see it as my Focus for the Year!
Monthly oracle card for January 2013:
The card that came up for January 2013 is “Brown Bear”.
SoulCollage(r) card: “Brown Bear”, Council suit
I’m looking forward to seeing how ‘Brown Bear’ features for me in the month of January and to writing about it in my blog. But for now, this is what I’m thinking, about the card.
This Bear card was intentionally made. Many years ago, when I worked for a large charity, I remember sitting in their garden one lunch time reading a book about an ‘inner journey’ to meet a spiritual guide. I think it may have been the book “Living Magically” by Gill Edwards.
What fun! I thought to myself – I loved the idea of having a spiritual guide. So I lay down on the grass and immediately went through the ‘inner journey’ process I’d just read.
Lo and behold – it worked! Large as life, by a camp fire, I met my guide. When I asked his name he told me he was called “Brown Bear”.
The Native American Indian in the bear suit on the card is the closest image I have found to what “Brown Bear” looked (and ‘felt’) like.
Because Brown Bear is a spiritual guide, and because Bear is a power animal (with qualities and strengths I can draw upon and embody) I chose images of an outer space/star-energy-type background to convey the ‘ethereal’ qualities.
Because of the ‘spacey’ background, the ‘tree’ that the bear is holding onto, has a totally different quality. Rather than an earth bound tree, it reminds me of an energetic ‘Pillar of Light’. I imagine this pillar stretching all the way down into the earth, and all the way up in to the Heavens!
Bear has been a ‘power animal’ for me for a long time now, and my nickname is even Claire Bear! Energy-wise, I think Bear and me have a lot in common.
However, everyone’s power animal can be different. Your Bear may have totally different qualities to my Bear!
‘My Bear’ is very ‘grounded’ – he has his feet firmly on the ground and is connected solidly to the earth.
She (my bear’s gender is interchangeable by the way!) is very nurturing and is a good ‘Mother’. But s/he is also strong, and if necessary will stand up tall and make his/her presence known! S/he is not afraid to ‘show herself’ and ‘stand up’ for what she believes in.
She hibernates for long periods of time and gives birth to her cubs (creations, ideas and projects) in the safety and sanctuary of her den (I love working from home, and prefer to ‘gestate’ my projects on my own, working for hours, alone, at my computer).
As for food, bears can eat absolute crud (raiding rubbish bins and getting overweight and unhealthy) or they can eat healthy ‘wild’ food and fare very well.
They can last without food for a long time – especially in hibernation. Depending on the nourishment available to them (and I also see this metaphorically as ‘spiritual sustanance’ or ‘food for the soul’!) they can be either fit and healthy and thriving, or starving, sluggish and sick. Bear is very adaptable food-wise, but fares best on ‘natural, wild’ living food.
I myself seem to yoyo from healthy eating (vibrant, rainbow coloured fruit and salads) to unhealthy eating (cooked, bland, colourless food, and beaucoup de vin rouge). Christmas now over, my thoughts are turning to ‘more raw’ rainbow-coloured food once again!
An imprisoned or chained bear is a very depressed bear indeed. We bears, like our freedom and independence, y’know.
Something else that occurs to me…. I’ve been listening to a meditation by Orin (channelled by Sanaya Roman). It features ‘Star Energies’ and constellations – one of which is the Great Bear.
This (free) Orin ‘Aligning with Star Energy’ meditation is available here if you’d like to listen:
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Every year (for fun), I do an annual card spread for myself, selecting one Tarot card and, more recently, a SoulCollage® card, for each month of the coming year.
my little drawings of last year’s annual spread 2012
It’s been fascinating to work with the energies and messages of the two cards each month – and see what transpires!
In the past, when I drew a card for each month, I never saw it as ‘set in stone’. If the energies of the card were something I did not want, it simply spurred me on to say “You wanna bet?!!”
This year, as usual, I did my SoulCollage® and Tarot spread for the next 12 months.
I looked at the SoulCollage® cards and thought
I looked at the Tarot cards and thought
“Yuk! … I don’t want those cards!”
So I am re-writing my own rules. I am ditching the Tarot spread I did, and I am focussing solely on the SoulCollage® spread. After all, if you don’t like it, you don’t have to have it!!!
Ah yes, I expect out of curiosity, I may refer back to the Tarot reading to see if the cards I selected echo my experiences. But for now, I’d rather work with my own personal SoulCollage® reading, and not the Tarot one.
The Tarot has been a wonderful tool for me, for many years, and I have loved using it. But my personal SoulCollage® deck has so much more meaning for me now, and somehow it seems ‘right’ to focus solely on those cards.
Actually, I may be ditching the Tarot reading I did, but I am not totally ditching the Tarot. Instead, I am collaging my own!
Last year I started to create some ‘Tarot’ archetypes (Major Arcana) cards for my SoulCollage® deck. Eventually I hope to have a full set of collaged Tarot archetypes in my deck.
Self-collaged Tarot cards will have much more personal meaning, I believe, than Tarot decks created by other artists.
Rider-Waite Tarot deck: Judgement
I love the idea of having my own personal Tarot within my SoulCollage® deck!
One of my self-collaged Tarot cards is “Judgement”.
The Rider-Waite Tarot’s “Judgement” card depicts ‘Resurrection’, with bodies arising from coffins, as an angel trumpets overhead.
Great metaphor! But for my collaged Tarot card, I did not particularly want coffins.
So I looked online (Google image search) for a Tarot Judgement card image I did like.
Up popped a card I actually have in another Tarot deck, (Robin Wood’s) of a woman arising from a cauldron with a golden phoenix behind her. Yup, much better than arising from a coffin!
SoulCollage(r) card: “Pheonix/Judgement”, Council suit
I decided to create a similar Phoenix-Judgement card for my own SoulCollage® deck. (see left!)
As I created the card, I part-deliberately and part-instinctively placed symbols and images onto it.
I know, for sure, that in future readings there will be lots of insights revealed from these symbols/images – that currently, I am totally unaware of. I’m looking forward to those future aha’s!
SoulCollage® card: Source
In my annual card spread, as well as drawing a card for each month, I select an overall ‘Focus of the Year’ card. This year’s focus card is my Source Energy card. I am so pleased!
In the months ahead I will be featuring the SoulCollage® card I have chosen for each month of the year 2013.
So watch out for January’s card!
Until then, Happy 2013! and …..
I hope the year brings you all you wish for – and lots of beautiful surprises you hadn’t even thought of!
This post is veeeeeery long. So, if you want to get to the ‘meat’ of it, then just scroll to the end of the post and you’ll find the reading’s ‘summary’. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!
When I first selected the cards for this week’s reading I thought “What’s this all about?!”
So I put the three cards to one side and ‘slept on it’.
This morning when I woke, I immediately began receiving ideas about the meaning of the cards. After breakfast I grabbed my journal (just A4 sheets of blank paper in a folder) and started scribbling.
As I worked with the cards, the reading became more and more clear.
Note: Before each reading you need to formulate a question. The answer to your question is provided in the cards you choose. All you have to do is decipher, or ‘read’ the cards, to find the meaning, insights and answers you seek.
If you want to gain your own meaning from the cards I select, (before I give mine) then watch the video below.
From now on, in the videos (until further notice!) I shall simply show the randomly selected cards. You can then see what the cards say to you.
If you’d like to see what the cards say to me, you can then pop along to this blog and have a read.
My question was about the week ahead – which happens to be Christmas week:-
“What do I need to know, and what energies do I need to draw on, to have the best week, and the best Christmas, I can?”
The underlying question (or un-asked question) was “How do I ensure that I, and everyone else, has a good time – and that we’re all still speaking to one another when Christmas is over!!!”
Card 1: Monk, spider web, and hand holding the earth
Card 2: Peter Precision (holding time, focus)
Card 3: Bird flying, bird of prey, butterfly, stones
First card: Monk, Web, Earth
Note: If you look at the card and nothing springs out immediately at you, it can be helpful to converse with the card – i.e. with one of the people or things within the card.
I chose to talk with the monk, writing down (in my journal) the conversation.
Me: “Monk, what do you have to tell me (about my question)?”
Monk: “I remind you of the Peace that is you. I remind you of your essential nature … and love.
“I remind you that we are all connected … not just immediate family … we are ALL ‘Family’, and we are all connected.
“Who you are, impacts The Whole …. affects EveryOne.
“If you can hold your balance, and be your essence – love, peace, joy, compassion – all will be well. And all is well – but you will feel, and know it.
“I remind you to lighten up, to see the humour, to smile, and to look at everything (EveryOne) through the eyes of love”.
I then looked at the hand holding the Earth to see what came to me. Instead of asking questions of it, I did the “I am the one who …” exercise, or in this case, “I am the hand who(!) …”
“I am the hand who cradles the Earth gently. I hold the world in my hands. I remind you to tread lightly on the earth. I remind you of the beauty of this planet, and the bigger picture.”
Looking at this card, I’m also reminded of my ‘human’ nature (physical self), and ‘Divine’ nature (non-physical Self).
i.e. Here I am, (a tiny speck) on the Earth, and here I am, also looking at the whole Earth (albeit an image of Earth on a card), held lovingly by the hand. I can imagine that whilst I’m here, as a ‘speck on the Earth’, there is also a non-physical aspect of me that is ‘there’ (and ‘everywhere’), who ‘sees’ it all, and ‘is’ it all, and who is ‘holding it all, in Love’.
I get the feeling that this card’s message and meaning is vast! I’m sure that many more meanings will be revealed each time I work with this card, and over time, in other readings.
As I look at the watch on the Monk’s wrist (and he seems to be cradling it lovingly, just as the Earth is cradled by the hand), I’m reminded of how precious time is.
Time, I believe, is our most precious resource, and this card reminds me to use it wisely. (Feels like the wise Monk wants to speak – so I shall pass over to him!) …
Monk: “Your time is well spent when Love is your currency.
“Be the love that you are, now and now, and now.
“Be kind and loving, and when you least feel like being kind and loving … that is the time when your kindness and love are needed most, by you and ‘them’.
Well, I know that when I’m feeling (genuinely) kind and loving it’s usually because I’m feeling good. When I’m in a great mood it’s easy to be kind and loving. When I’m grumpy, it’s not!
So, that is what I’m going to aim for. My aim in the week ahead is to stay in a good mood and to keep up my ‘balance’ and peacefulness and ‘good-feeling-ness’(!) Then, the kindness and lovingness should come naturally, and it’ll all flow beautifully.
I will try to be aware, and if I notice that something has tipped me off the ‘balanced scales’ of Peace and Love, then I’ll do what I need to, and hop back on!
Something else that springs to mind ….
I so much want us all to have a Happy Christmas, and I’ll do what I can to ensure that. However, I must remember that happiness comes from within – or as Abraham-Hicks says, “it’s an inside job”. (I mistyped ‘job’ just then and wrote “it’s an inside joy”! – one of my better ‘Freudian slips’…)
I am reminding myself therefore that it’s not my personal responsibility to make anyone happy - how they feel is their job!
I must also remember that my own happiness is my job, and not theirs.
I realise (but don’t always remember) that it’s not what others do (or don’t do), say (or don’t say) that upsets me … it’s how I perceive and give meaning to what they do and say. It’s my own negative judgements that can make me feel upset.
I also know (and also, sometimes forget), that if I want to change my feelings, I need to change my thoughts.
The Abraham-Hicks ‘Focus Wheel’ might be a useful tool for me this week, and also the ‘Book of Positive Aspects’ process.
Thanks Mr Monk, you’ve taught me a lot!
SoulCollage(r) card, Community suit: “Peter Precision”
Second card: Peter Precision
And this card is about focus. It’s also about having the right tools for the job in hand.
I notice he has ‘love at his fingertips’, and that he is ‘holding time’.
This card is another reminder about the preciousness of time. The time-piece he is holding is made of gold – a very precious metal. How much clearer can the messages in this reading get?!
So thanks Universe, now I know what else the card is referring to … Something happened recently, and as a result, I thought that someone was not respecting my time (and therefore ‘not caring’ about me).
I now realise, the truth is that I am the one who has not been respecting my time, and therefore I am the one who has not been loving and caring to myself. I have also been wasting my time in being upset!
‘Time’ is for En-JOYment!
So this card reminds me to respect my time, spending it in ways that give me pleasure. And also to enjoy every moment of time that I have here on this planet.
Whatever I choose to do, from the most mundane, to the most exciting, I can enjoy it.
I came to have fun! Not to harbour resentments and cast blame!
Other questions I now want to ask myself (alone, with my trusty journal) are:
* Where else in my life am I not respecting my time?
* Where in my life do I want to focus more of my time. And where in my life do I want to focus less of my time? And where do I want to stop spending time altogether? (That last question should be interesting!)
* For the year ahead: Where will I choose to put more time, and more focus - in 2013?
One more card to go….
SoulCollage(r) card: “Birds, Butterfly and Stones” (Suit undecided)
Third Card: Birds, Butterfly, Stones
Bird of prey: “I am the one with the sharp eye, sharp beak and sharp claws, yet I choose to just sit here, and observe.”
Raven/crow: “I am the one with wings outstretched. I am the one rising above the levels. I am the shadow on the wall. I am the one you cannot see clearly. I am the one who reminds you that what you see is your shadow. It is all You – not ‘the other’.”
Butterfly: ”I am the one basking in the sunshine. I am the one who has wings outstretched. I am the one waiting to fly. My wings are open (so I will not be eaten!!!) I am safe when my wings are open and outstretched.”
This card also speaks (to me) of our Divinity.
The shadow (of the bird) reminds me of our light and our dark. When we judge or criticise another, if we’re honest with ourselves, we’ll discover that we too are capable of exactly what we are accusing them of. When we praise another, we forget, or don’t realise or notice, that we have the same beautiful qualities in us, that we are admiring in them.
So to sum up, the messages and reminders I got this week are:
* Your Time is Precious. Use it wisely. Use it joyfully.
* Respect yourself, and choose wisely how to spend your time.
* Respect others, and how they choose to spend their time.
* Love is our most Valuable Currency. Spend it generously! (Especially at Christmas – cos LOVE is what Christmas is all about)…
I have just written a veeery looooong blog post – that I have now scrapped (!) about this week’s SoulCollage(R) video reading.
The reason I’ve scrapped it, is that I have just looked at my ‘I am the one who….’ statements for each of the three cards (in my SoulCollage(R) ring-binder, where I keep this kind of stuff) and …
… I now realise the power of Seena Frost’s ‘I am the one who…’ exercise (and I am sure I have much more to ‘realise’ about it in the future!)
If you ever needed clarification of what a card or image means, just do the ‘I am the one who’ exercise!
This exercise is where you ‘step into the card and become’ the person, or the object, or the environment, and you speak from that place.
It’s a little bit like an actor taking on a acting role – but without a script – so you have to ‘improvise’ (use your imagination, and ‘make it up’).
As you do the ‘I am the one who…’ exercise, you might just state the obvious, and say what you see. But sometimes that will reveal the deepest insights for you.
For example, if the image shows someone leaning on a wall you might say:
“I am the one with my back against the wall”, or
“I am the one who is strongly supported” or
“I am the one needing support” or
“I am the one who is resting and relaxing” or
“I am the one who is leaning on something solid”
Get the idea?!
Often, what pops into your head first will be ideal, and will give you insights into ‘where you are at’ (and often where you then need to ‘go’) in whatever area you are seeking clarification on.
So, it helps to formulate a question before you do a reading. Because, when questions are asked, answers have to follow.
Reminder: When formulating a question in a reading, ask open-ended questions. So rather than questions that require a (somewhat limiting) ‘yes’ or a ‘no’ answer such as ’will I or won’t I’? ‘should I or shouldn’t I?’ ‘do they or don’t they?’
Instead, it’s more expansive (and revealing) to ask something such as ‘tell me about…’ or ‘how can I best achieve/create/manifest/experience …’ or ‘what do I need to know about….’
And I’m going off on a bit of a tangent – when I thought I was only going to post the “I am the ones” for each card – sorry about that!
So, my lovely friends, here are my ‘I am the ones who…’ for each card in this week’s reading.
I think it is all that is necessary for me to write.
I hope you enjoy my ‘I am the one’s’ but I’d love to hear yours too!
First Card: Peter Precision
SoulCollage(r) card, Community suit: “Peter Precision”
“I am the one who works with precision.
I am the one with accurate and powerful tools.
I am the one who looks closely at what is before me.
I am the one who knows how things tick.
I am the one with laser-like focus and attention to the finest detail.
I am the one who is holding the gold.
I am the one turning the wheels.
I am the one holding time.
I am the one whose vision is magnified.
I am the one with the sun and the moon.
I am the one with spirals and flowers.
I am the one with Love at my finger tips”.
I named this card after my father, Peter, who was very good at mending (and creating) things. He was a Catholic and was named after St Peter.
I’m reminded that St Peter is said to hold the Keys to the Kingdom of Heaven – and I see this as a message that we ALL hold the keys, to our own Heaven on Earth.
Middle Card: Peace/Web
SoulCollage(R) card: Peace-Web, Council suit
“I am the one who watches you.
I am the one who sees you with love and understanding.
I am the one who sits at peace.
I am the one who cradles time.
I am the one within the sparkling web of jewels.
I am the shining web of light.
I am the hand that gently cradles the earth”.
Question: Novice monk, what do you have to give me?
“I give you peace. I remind you that you can sit and rest your hands, you can sit and be, and watch the world.”
Question: Is there anything else you can tell me?
“You are wrapped in a warm cloak of love”.
Me: Thank you. I shall remember to just sit, and see the beauty of my world.
Final card: Mesa Card
SoulCollage(R) card: Mesa-tools (Council suit)
“I am the one you gathered to you, piece by piece until whole and complete.
I am a part of you.
I am a representation of your whole self.
Yet more, a healing bundle, tools, strength, wisdom, service, for yourself and others.
Use me as a tool in your transformation work, for the good of all life.
I respect you, as you respect me. Love empowers me”.
Make of all of this as you will!
Have a fabulous week and Lots and Lots of Love to YOU for now, the week ahead, and always.
Just so you know, the ‘bedroom noise’ I spoke about in the video was trains rattling along on the railway line (what did you think I meant?!)
My bedroom backs on to the tracks that scoot into Clapham Junction station, apparently one of the busiest junctions in the world (2000 trains a day according to Wikipedia).
I spoke in the video about the “What if….?” exercise and promised to explain what it is. I can’t remember where I first heard or read about it, but it’s one of my most favourite tools at the moment.
There is a group on Facebook, and me and some FB friends go there regularly to post our What If’s.
An example of one of my What If’s was when I was worrying about something coming up. It was work that was new to me and for about a week I kept fretting and imagining all the things that could go wrong!
I knew I had to turn that kind of thinking around, (being LoA-savvy and all, and knowing I create my reality through my thoughts and beliefs about ‘my reality’ – eeek!)
Well, I just knew that my worrying would draw to me what I did NOT want – and, I’d create the very stuff I was worrying about.
So, I went to the What If Facebook group and started (somewhat weakly) to write my What If:
“What if everything goes beautifully tomorrow. What if I can stay in the moment. What if I am wise and loving. What if it all turns out really well and I have a great day.”
I sat with that for a while, thinking about how I’d love my day to go, and then I tried again…..
“What if all I have to do is feel good and trust myself. What if all I have to do is feel good now.
What if all these ‘feeling goods’ are stacking up, earning ‘good feeling’ interest, that will flow out to me, and drop into my day as joy, and drop into my head as inspiration, and knowing, and what if I instinctively move into ‘right action’ exactly when I need to.
What if I am so much more ‘capable’ than I imagine – what if I’m in fact brilliant!
What if I’m the best!
What if I can handle tomorrow better than anyone I know!
What if I’m not alone in all of this.
What if I have loving guidance on tap, in each moment.
What if it’s ALL good – no matter what!
What if I look back on all of this tomorrow evening and say ‘Wow! Hey! It really was true! What a great day today has been!’ Yes! YES!!!!”
I got lots of lovely, joyful and encouraging comments from my Facebook friends!
And as I commented (in the What If group) to my friend Kate:
“I was so knocked out by this having come true. I’d been worried for days about ‘this particular day’ ahead of me – not like me at all – to worry nor angst.
But I was angsting for at least 5 days!
And then the day before ‘the day’ I did this kind of ‘what if rampage’, and the day I’d worried about, was as fab as I’d ‘what if’ed it’ to be!
This Energy Stuff reeeeeeeally works! I’m so happy!“
And to my friend Anamaria:
“I didn’t realise how powerful it is – until it transformed everything! I’m going to play this game again!”
Yes, the day I’d worried about was wonderful, easy, joyful, and I handled any challenge that came my way effortlessly – as if by ‘magic’ (another word for ‘energy work’! wink!)
What I’ve found about ‘What ifs’ is they open us up to limitless possibilities.
Just beginning with those words seems to tap into a source of (previous unimagined) wisdom, knowing, and wonderful possibilities.
Suddenly, literally, anything seems possible!
So, rather than worrying about your present reality, or your future, possibly negative realities, imagine the realities you would LOVE to be your reality!
I think children would be fabulous at ‘What If’s’ because they never limit themselves and can imagine that anything is possible – no matter what ‘the world’ shows or tries to dictate to them.
I remember as a young child (about 7 years old) telling my Mum “If C. was a boy I would marry her”.
My Mum tried to explain that I could not do that because C. was a girl.
I KNOW, I said, but I’m just saying, IF she was a boy, I would marry her.
I knew, in those days, that only men and women married each other. No same sex marriages then.
I certainly had not heard of, nor did I understand ‘hetero’ or ‘homo’ sexual relationships. But I COULD entertain the possibility of marrying my best friend, who happened to be the same sex as me.
Just look at where we are now.
What If’s bring you back to that kind of childlike innocence, openness and vision, and the pure trust and belief that anything can be, and anything we can imagine, is possible.
I posted this on You Tube last week but forgot to post it here! Sorry about that.
It’s nearly time for the reading for the coming week – and I’ll be posting that this weekend.
Anyway, I hope you’ve had a fabulous week - with many opportunities to ‘shine your light’ and share your gifts!
By the way, if you are wondering what your ‘gifts’ are, they are usually the things that you LOVE to do. You know, the kind of things you’re good at, and take for granted, and when others compliment you, you say “oh… it’s nothing!”